My project I tried to take a serious turn, but I kept struggling with taking a look at myself and figuring out what I fear most. There are things that I fear, but not to the point of it being crippling, well at least I don't think it's crippling, but the one thing I fear and hate the most is... STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE.
I admit, I can't talk, I use to do dumbass things when I was young, for example, I went into an abandoned school with friends and got lost. I somehow ended up on the roof and couldn't figure out a way down. So me being the dumbass I am, I jump off the roof. I fell about ten feet and hurt myself a little bit. A buddy of mine saw me jump and looked to see if I was OK and after that he decided to pull out a ladder from the roof and climbed down to help me up. When I saw him climb down, the only thought that came to me at the time was, "WHERE THE FUCK did that ladder come from?"
It's something about being around your friends or a large group of people that makes people want to either act dumb or do things that they would never do if they were by themselves. I will show a couple of clips that show why sometimes I'm afraid of people rather than a certain thing.
Food + Dumbasses = Trouble
http://ilpvideo.com/video.php?v=MjU4NTk
In this clip, these two ladies get mad at an employee at McDonalds. You can't hear what was said, but by the slap that the employee gave, you can tell it's about to go down. I don't know if he messed up their order, but this is what happens when "keepin' it real, goes wrong".
Don't Aid Dumbasses with their Dumbassery
http://ilpvideo.com/video.php?v=MjU3NDE
Now, if a guy challenges you to hit them, why in the hell would you do it. Wouldn't it cross your mind that this guy is just looking for a reason to hit somebody, but this guy didn't think, did he?
Doing the Right Thing Still Leads to Dumbassery
http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhX5cU465wf925u9Kl
Even when trying to do the right thing, people will still find a reason to do some dumbass stuff. These "fine" gentlemen decide to get on this guy for going to the police for something, don't know and I don't want to know. So as soon as the police leave the scene, these guys chase this dude all the way to a store and jump him in the store.
Celebrities Still have to Deal with Dumbasses
http://ilpvideo.com/video.php?v=MjYwMDI
The video picks up when Shia LaBeouf is on the ground because some guy got pissed off that Whitwickey killed Starscream in the dumbest way possible. I bet Shia was thinking, " Where the hell is Optimus Prime and Bumblebee at when I need them!" Luckily, Shia's friends or some random guys were there to stop him before he did something to screw his career up.
Biology Fight 2011
http://ilpvideo.com/video.php?v=MjU1Nzk
OK, you're sitting in class, trying to learn about what a kidney does or what Photosynthesis means and then all of the sudden, These two dumbasses decide it's time to do something that all dumbasses love to do... be dumb.
"Justin Beiber" is mean
http://ilpvideo.com/video.php?v=MjYzODY
Now it's cold and raining, but being a dumbass is here, whether rain or shine. These baby dumbasses decide to head to the roof and duke it out for no fucking reason.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Outcome From Project Showing
When I show my project. The reaction I think I'm going to get will probably be a mixture of laughter and disgust. My project is going to show what people will have to deal with in situations you would never think about having to deal with.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Fear factor = scientific method = critical thinking = a formula for creativity???
What would make a person fearful could depend on a lot of factors, some being:
- Being in a situation that you are not used to being in
- Knowing something is wrong but still doing it.
- Not knowing what can happen in a situation.
Fear is a feeling that a person gets when they are put into a situation they either feel is a threat or does not know what could happen. If a person is put into a state of fear, one of two things could happen:
- Coming face to face with it and finding out if they can handle it.
or
- Turning around and getting the fuck out of dodge and living to see another day.
Fear is a weird emotion. It's uses are varied:
- Keeping a person safe because they know that the situation can be harmful to them.
- It could be used by a person to control another person. If a person knows that they instill fear in another person, they can use that knowledge to hurt another person.
To me, if a person fears nothing, that is the one thing I fear most. A person that fears nothing, is a person that thinks they have no limits, and has no remorse for their actions. Fear gives a society a boundary that they know they should not cross.
In my life, fear tells me to make sure i'm not in a situation that I have no control over. I make sure that I'm not in a place where if shit goes down, I have no way of getting out. I used to be scared of getting to know people. I've alwaysThere are more things that fear does, but that would be a long list for another day.
- Being in a situation that you are not used to being in
- Knowing something is wrong but still doing it.
- Not knowing what can happen in a situation.
Fear is a feeling that a person gets when they are put into a situation they either feel is a threat or does not know what could happen. If a person is put into a state of fear, one of two things could happen:
- Coming face to face with it and finding out if they can handle it.
or
- Turning around and getting the fuck out of dodge and living to see another day.
Fear is a weird emotion. It's uses are varied:
- Keeping a person safe because they know that the situation can be harmful to them.
- It could be used by a person to control another person. If a person knows that they instill fear in another person, they can use that knowledge to hurt another person.
To me, if a person fears nothing, that is the one thing I fear most. A person that fears nothing, is a person that thinks they have no limits, and has no remorse for their actions. Fear gives a society a boundary that they know they should not cross.
In my life, fear tells me to make sure i'm not in a situation that I have no control over. I make sure that I'm not in a place where if shit goes down, I have no way of getting out. I used to be scared of getting to know people. I've alwaysThere are more things that fear does, but that would be a long list for another day.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Bliss
On Monday, October 10, we were given the day off to do whatever made us happy. Whether it is legal or illegal, right or wrong, that was our day to do what makes us happy. That day, I was overloaded with work, so I spent that day in the computer lab working on all the assignments to this day that are still not done, which sucks, but what am I going to do. I was invited to two parties that Saturday, so I had a decision to make, have a day of happiness and no work or stay at home and finish school work. I weighed out the pros and cons, but after a while, I just said "Fuck it, I'm partying today!" So I spent all day having fun and hanging out with friends the whole day. For the first time in a long time, I was actually having fun and not worried about school or work. I had so much fun, dancing, playing games, drinking, just letting loose. After it was all said and done, I headed home around 5 or 6 in the morning, went to bed for 4 hours and started working again.
As I was working, the thought hit me, I don't think I'll be able to have another day like that again because of school and work, FFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!
As I was working, the thought hit me, I don't think I'll be able to have another day like that again because of school and work, FFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Limitations
Limitations. A lot things can hold a person back, whether it be physical, mental, or your own stupidity. There are factors you can control and some factors that you can't control.
Back when I was in middle school, I had to change schools because my mother didn't like where I was headed by going to a public school. She had me transferred to a catholic school. This was nothing new to me because I went to one when I was doing 1st through 4th grade, but something about this new school didn't feel right. Going there, I was one of the only black kids there in the upper grades, was the poor kid there, so affording the school was taxing on my whole family, and it really didn't help that I felt real dumb and stupid while I was going there. While at public school, the work was so easy, but I was no where near ready for the type of classes that the catholic school gave me. The more the work came in,the more my mother wanted me to do better, the I was panicking.
I didn't think I would even get out of middle school. My good grades from public school turned into below average grades in catholic school. Looking back at it now, I'm actually glad I went through all the shit I did. If it wasn't for that, I don't know if I ever would have tested myself in school like I have been doing now.
Back when I was in middle school, I had to change schools because my mother didn't like where I was headed by going to a public school. She had me transferred to a catholic school. This was nothing new to me because I went to one when I was doing 1st through 4th grade, but something about this new school didn't feel right. Going there, I was one of the only black kids there in the upper grades, was the poor kid there, so affording the school was taxing on my whole family, and it really didn't help that I felt real dumb and stupid while I was going there. While at public school, the work was so easy, but I was no where near ready for the type of classes that the catholic school gave me. The more the work came in,the more my mother wanted me to do better, the I was panicking.
I didn't think I would even get out of middle school. My good grades from public school turned into below average grades in catholic school. Looking back at it now, I'm actually glad I went through all the shit I did. If it wasn't for that, I don't know if I ever would have tested myself in school like I have been doing now.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Wait! Now I'm 55. Damn, Time Travel's a Bitch
Ok, somehow I ended up in 2042 and now I'm old and pissed off at everything. Looking back at my childhood, some of those toys primary use changed a lot.
My eyesight is not like it used to be. Everything is blurry, now I need something to fix my eyesight. I saw these old handcuffs I used to play with. I think with a little tinkering, I might be able to make my sight better.
A few hours later... Eureka! I have done it, I just converted my old handcuffs into a nice pair of glasses. It's kind of weird having paperclips on my face, but hey, you gotta work with what you got around you at the time.
Oh my back, my back. I think my back went out again and oh shit it hurts. I gotta figure something out now, because this is not going to fly. I'm looking around and I'm not seeing anything really useful, but low and behold, I just found an old necklace of mine. It's kind of small, but with some modifications, I might be able to turn this old thing into a brace. Lets keep looking for stuff, after a while, I have a necklace, an old aluminum sheet, and some suspenders, with a little elbow grease and time... Ok now I'm sitting pretty, I just made a nice looking back brace.
Let me strap this on... Oh this feels so good, now I can move around and have to worry about my back locking up on me.
Now I need to find a way to unlock this stupid door because I forgot where I put the key to the attic. Looking around, I see an old toy box. I opened it and some bugs come flying out. I tear through it and find some old X-Men Wolverine claws. They look like they're about to break apart, so it'll be easy to break them now. I broke off two of the claws and lets see if I can pick the lock. After a while the lock is done, as I go to open the door, it falls off the hinges. I wasted all that time just for it to fall off, that sucks, but at least I'm out now.
My eyesight is not like it used to be. Everything is blurry, now I need something to fix my eyesight. I saw these old handcuffs I used to play with. I think with a little tinkering, I might be able to make my sight better.
A few hours later... Eureka! I have done it, I just converted my old handcuffs into a nice pair of glasses. It's kind of weird having paperclips on my face, but hey, you gotta work with what you got around you at the time.
Oh my back, my back. I think my back went out again and oh shit it hurts. I gotta figure something out now, because this is not going to fly. I'm looking around and I'm not seeing anything really useful, but low and behold, I just found an old necklace of mine. It's kind of small, but with some modifications, I might be able to turn this old thing into a brace. Lets keep looking for stuff, after a while, I have a necklace, an old aluminum sheet, and some suspenders, with a little elbow grease and time... Ok now I'm sitting pretty, I just made a nice looking back brace.
Let me strap this on... Oh this feels so good, now I can move around and have to worry about my back locking up on me.
Now I need to find a way to unlock this stupid door because I forgot where I put the key to the attic. Looking around, I see an old toy box. I opened it and some bugs come flying out. I tear through it and find some old X-Men Wolverine claws. They look like they're about to break apart, so it'll be easy to break them now. I broke off two of the claws and lets see if I can pick the lock. After a while the lock is done, as I go to open the door, it falls off the hinges. I wasted all that time just for it to fall off, that sucks, but at least I'm out now.
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